Lonelygirlarts

A little chilly outside when the sun gets behind a cloud. No rain yet today, though it has threatened. Kezie spent the day with me, and we went and did a little shopping. I went looking for a hanging basket for inside, the one I found was to big. No luck. And I needed to find hooks that fit for a dropped ceiling, no luck. But, I did get mty notebook, and a new folder to organize my life . Starting tomorow-I am getting my life together, I have no control over alot of things, but some things I can control! And I will do it with all my anger used to my advantage. Anyway... The garden walk was very interesting. Flowers on everything, and I see a few eggplants starting. Those are a first for me, I have Black Beauty's. Four of them that are growing very nicely, so I am hoping I will be making eggplant parmasion with my eggplants! That will make me make my own marinara sauce, and try to get some fresh mozzarella for it. Probly be picking enough sugar snap peas for Brian by Saturday. And m

I love taking black and white pictures. Now, I can do it with either my camera, or a program on the machine. That is pretty cool. But I do miss using my my SLR. I took time to really see the picture, and took my time snapping. Now, they don't call it point and shoot for nothing. I have gotten so lazy at taking pictures, mistaking quantity for quality. My God! I am turning into a Walmart mentality. Any how.... I do miss the vibrant reds of Kodachrome slides, had to use that in school for color projects, and now they don't make it anymore!!! I liked Black and White so much better, you always developed your own rolls. And that was allot of fun. When I understand the process, everything is so much easier for me. I never got the hang of color developing, never understood the ratio's, chemistry, way too much for me to retain. Mine was so much simpler, so my best work was done in Black and White. I am just drawn to shadows and darkness. I do love all styles of photography, but Bla

Another day has been started. Cold one out there! I went for a walk this morning, pulled a few weeds. Made a very nice lunch Apple stuffed French Toast, and I even ate it! I tend to make food and then throw away. I don't like eating, but I love the making! Tonight I am having garlic chive smashed potatoes, fresh corn on the Cobb, and I think I am going to make a little smoke paprika, a bit of cayenne, a bit of lite mayo. Something a bit different. And a nice chicken breast that is marinating as I write in a bit of fresh garlic, olive oil, lemon juice, lemon peel, lemon pepper, sea salt, and a few dashes of Tabasco. I plan on searing it, then bake it off with fresh herbs. I will try to eat it! Before I could eat, but could of cared less what, now I can't eat, and I love to make everything I put in my mouth. Ironic isn't it!!! I want to get to the store this afternoon, but I am feeling a bit lazy. I thought if I get a new notebook, I could start organizing my life again (It a

I love these flowers, if I could I would have a full bed of every color. When I lived in Grand Marais, I had a little A-Frame cabin on top of a steep hill. The deck was full of pots with flowers, and the beds in front. When I would drive up the hill at nite my head lites would hit the flowers and all the cosmos would be dancing in the spot lites. I loved coming home to that. Now, I am back to growing cosmos, and thinking of all the great memories that where made in Grand Marais. The friends I had, the life I had. I belonged somewhere again, haven't felt like that since I was a kid in Fort Francis, staying at my second home with my Aunty Lena and Uncle Moe. And all this is because of a pretty little Cosmo. So far only the pink and purple ones have showed up. I am hoping that the shorter ones are either orange, and I do know I have a very good chance of getting some white ones, Purity. I am really trying to get better at this writing thing. Use words in a more responsible way, at lea

Another day has gone by. Not a good one today, I can't seem to get out of a nasty melancholy mood. Sat outside and cried listening to How to Save a Life. Don't know how to save mine right now. Anyway.... I have lost control of my tomatoes. They are growing, and growing fast, one of the poles might be a tad short. But we will deal. Everyday I have been going out and tying up limbs that seem to be escaping. I know I keep repeating myself when I say how Happy I am with how the garden turned out this year. This fall I will get a bigger tiller and till it really good, add more compost, and next year, things will be even better. I will have the grow lite unit set up properly and that will be enough to start 300 plants the right way. A Train is rumbling by... I should go out for another walk. My blood - pressure is up pretty high right now, has been all week. Life... I have a long list of projects that must be done by December 15, 2009!!!! I am trying to organize my life, but it is no

I am trying to use my little garden as a teaching tool. I am hoping to learn how to have patience. I don't have it, I don't think I ever had it. But after realizing that my garden will not look like the ones in the magazines or seed catalog as soon as a seed goes in!!! Each day I do see something different, sometimes not big changes, but change. I have to learn to be grateful for the little things. Be patient for the larger picture to evolve. Learn that!!! I read in of of my many magazines,this quote "It isn't the great big pleasures that count the most; it's making a great deal out of the little ones." I think this goes along in my lesson plan, but have always believed in this. That is how memories are made. One small action at a time. Why can't I see that with patience. So, I am hoping this garden project will help me get a better grip on it. I do love sitting back there. listening to Jimmy buffet, or rocking while I am weeding to AC/DC, I really like Bl

It was a beautiful morning, after all the rain the sun was out for 7 hours before the storm hit. Took a walk with my niece and clicked a few rose pictures at Veterans Park. I want to grow some roses. But where? They need full sun, I am trying to visualize my backyard, and I would have to skip the second lily bed, and that would throw off my entire design. I will get a big pot and get a baby rose that I can bring in, two of them. I just can't justify having roses over design, and I will have the climbing roses over the arbor in a few years. But, I have figured out my tulip situation. When I widen the day lily beds , I will plant them all in front of them. I hope it will work, maybe I better ask around. I don't want to spend the money, and find out they are not compatible! When I was weeding Monday, I found a few onions growing!!! I just laughed. Live and learn!!! I am shot, had a long day, tat walk was a good one, a big uphill for awhile. But, the hamburger was even better tasti

A rain day! The garden was cleaned up yesterday, today it was the inside's turn. Fish tank is all nice ad clean, floors, dusting, rugs, all the glass nick-knacks washed and sparkle back in there place. I finally hung the witches ball. really a glass bobber originally. It is supposed to catch evil spirits that come in thru the open windows. See if it works, I have had it for over ten years, I bought it in Grand Marais, this is the first time it has been hung. The sun has peeked out every once in awhile, but it looks like more rain, I did go out and do my walk around the garden with the camera. I think my next move for the day will be to make a snack, popcorn!!! Put a clean pair of lounging clothes on, and I am done for the day. Going to work on what I need to get this fall in bulbs, and where I am going to be able to put them? I have to redo a bed now, I think, the sunflower bed might work, if I dig it up by two more feet. No that will not work, I plan to dig it up, but I need a dif

The sun was out today, and it was a day well spent! I weeded the veggie garden, the pumpkin patch, The sunflower bed, and all along the sidewalk I pulled weeds. I have the day lily bed and the window bed left to do. I mowed, and cleaned up the area where I had all those pots that failed-garbage. I have tomatoes, and my cosmos are beautiful. Things are growing, it has been real slow, been so cold, and the nites are still cold. I made tartar sauce tonight with snipped herbs from my barrel and garden, chives, basil and parsley went into it, a few dashes of Tabasco , lite mayo, lemon zest, lemon juice, lemon pepper, sea salt, sweet pickle relish, and a bit of juice. I made catfish fingers, tasted really good, the catfish was really tasty , thank- god! last time I bought some, it wasn't that great.It was a nice meal after a good day in the back yard. And to put the icing on the cake all evening it has rained , and not a pouring one either. A bit of thunder and a lightening show ever

I love making these sweaters, they are so easy, and the fun part is finishing them off. Last year when I was doing the crap shows, I was so proud of everything I made, then nothing sold, hardly anything. And BOOM! Went my self - confidence and everything was given away to friends of friends and the shelter. People around here, not the market. People in this area think everything should be cheap, garage sale cheap. Fuck em'. My opinion of people around this area is so low anyway, I should of known better. These sweaters sell for $35.00 to $45.00 in the cities with no problem. I sold allot of cotton crotchet washcloth sets and scarves for adults. But ,I had tons of really cute kids hats, sold a few. But anyway, now I am making scarves and hat sets for the homeless shelter in Duluth. A friend started doing it a few years ago. Friends donate money or yarn and she drops some off, and I go to town. In fact, I have a box for her to pick up now. I have to get started on my Christmas gifts

It has been a really lazy morning! Yesterday rained really good on and off all day and evening. Did get some cooking done, slow roasted a pork butt, made a spicy rub,shoved slivers of garlic all over, and roasted it with a bit of water, brown sugar and apple cider vinegar. It all got pulled for raspberry chipolte b.b.q. sauce. It was really good, and I froze the rest in individual containers for future dinners. I did the same with my ground beef, made some into sloppy joe, I make a regular base, freeze again individually, and when I decide what type of sloppy joe I want, I get a variety this way. And I made some into patty's for the burger nite's, I like to caramelize my onions when I have a burger. I try to make meals I can freeze so when I forget or get lazy, I have something home-made that will take only a re-heat,or fast! Today I have some strawberry's to deal with, I have pie crust (mom,makes the best for me).I keep it in the freezer in balls. I was thinking of little

It was a good day today. I walked to the store, I think i is less than three miles,maybe more ? And then a friend picked me up. I did a major grocery pick-up.And I got some really good things, everything to make pulled pork. And I found a Raspberry Chipolte B.B.Q. sauce, sounds good to me, and a few Chinese meals, with seafood or chicken, choice of fried rice or, Chinese noodles, and a few other add-ins. And lots of eggs, addicted to ham and cheese omelets. I still have stuff to make empanada's. And enough ground beef to make a few hamb. patties up. Fruit was pretty decent, I liked the way the strawberry's looked, and the red grapes ,nice and sweet. The only hing I did not get on my list was cereal, but I am having a hard time finding one that agrees with me.I did buy a treat, Tzaki sauce, and a loaf of forccia bread. And I got the basics, And I did it again, got everything to make pineapple canadian bacon pizza, and I always throw most of it away.But this time I am going to ma

Been thinking alot about why? The life we have is not always the life we want. What happened to make it that way? No matter how I dissect my life, I can not for the life of me figure out why? I accept the way I was raised, I had a wonderful childhood, puberty sucked, and a few bad things happened during that time, but I weathered it. Why don't I have the drive to be somebody? I want to , but I guess I don't know the directions on how to get there anymore, and I never read the directions.I have attainable goals, and I don't mind hard work, I have worked hard all my life, right now, I have the time to do great things, Okay, I don't feel good 99% of the time. But I push through that, I know I am not stupid, I am not lazy. Why don't I have a fire in me hot enough to get out and be somebody?I have confidence in myself, or do I? Coming back to this area after so many years, it has not been a welcoming experience. I have tried to be friends with those from the past, it did

It is a beautiful sunny day today. As soon as House is over, I am going outside, putting on the ear buds and listen to Jimmy Buffet. Write a few letters. I love stationary, and when ever I go garage saling, I find a boxed set of stationary, I have found two beautiful sets. And I love writing letters. It is a lost art.And their is such a beautiful and expensive assortment, and I have made my own, I still have a ton of it, I drew pen borders, and got a hold of a copy machine a few years ago, now when ever, I color or watercolor the drawings, instant stationary. So, I am going to go sit in the backyard now, and write a few letters. A nice lazy Sunday! And a Jimmy Buffet Day!!!

I love trains. The sound of a train whistle is the loneliest sound in the world. It reminds me of home,my childhood,my family,it reminds me of everything that is gone. The train is just one of those things that grabbed a hold of me when I was a baby and never left. To hear the whistle at night is very calming. It is not noise to me. My mom used to jump trains when she was young. Aren't trains cool!!!

I had a very nice day today. This morning in the garden, and this afternoon I went for a nice long walk. Came home, cleaned a bit. Now it is down time. The garden is doing okay. I have a strip that is not letting too much grow. And I think I will end up pulling one section out, I think it is all weeds, or turnips, I am not sure. Tomatoes are beautiful, my cayenne peppers are doing really well, but the other two are not, they are healthy,but slow. I have cukes and peas, beans, one pole has plants, the other,nothing,so I reseeded. Dead part of the garden. My herbs are taking off. So is the dill . Pumpkins are fantastic, all the flowers doing pretty good. I am pretty happy with what has been coming up. For a first time garden plot, it is doing good. The sunflowers are healthy. The only thing I might of pulled out is the Mexican sunflowers. Oh well !!! Live and learn. I have to take a picture of the pots I paint , I have one with the Gerber daisy's in it.

A perfect radish was pulled this morning! If I die tonite I will die happy!!! Something grew pretty!!! I sat outside for a few hours this morning, weeded the sunflowers, things are looking pretty good out back, and I am very pleased so far. A few mistakes, live and learn. But I love what I am doing, I look forward to being back there. I wish I had a laptop. I feel like I am wasting my summer time doing this. So it is time to go back, I will get better at this writing thing when it rains!!!

A perfect summer day in northern Minnesota today. Walked around the garden,plucked a few weeds that I missed yesterday. I have two plots that I believe are mostly weeds, but, hey I grew it,so I am happy. I am wasting time right now. I should be updating my garden journal, doing dishes, getting ready for work, run a few errands. I have ten more minutes before I need to get moving. The garden is looking pretty good. I am happy with it. Gave mom some radishes yesterday! Time to go on to another project before I leave this comfortable home.

I so enjoyed today. The garden got weeded, some radishes got picked. Now the sprinkler is doing it's job. I have already started making seed orders, and deciding what perennials to get for next spring. The addiction has overcome me. I keep looking for a plot of grass I can dig up. Right now it is the only thing in my life I am truly enjoying, even realizing weeds took over my onions and carrots. Live and learn, for a first year garden it is not doing to bad.

The days have been brite ones. And I have been playing in my garden. This is the first year I have been able to have one at my apartment, And I have the perfect backyard for it. I had to borrow a shovel from a friend, and I told him if my garden grew it was because of the shovel. And I was not giving it back, the garden grew, the shovel has magical powers, good karma, whatever... It is also mine!!! I plan to give him plenty of veggies and flowers. That is the story of my magic shovel.